I will just say that no matter how hard the choice to place your own flesh and blood up for adoption is this part is truly amazing. To know that you just made someones day a miracle is the most amazing feeling in the world. I told the adoptive mom tonight and to hear how excited and happy she was made all of this worth it. I gave her something that very very few people will be able to give her and her husband. That is the gift of a child.
It's not an easy choice to decide on adoption but not all of it is horrible. You can change so many people's lives for the better. This little boy is going to have two amazing parents (and one awesome birthmom too!!) and a life that alone I would never be able to provide. This couple is going to experience the joys of raising their first baby and all the excitement that comes along with that. I'll be able to go to college and watch this little boy grow and smile and I'll know that everyone is so happy with the decision.
I'm excited to go shopping with the new momma for baby clothes! I know I'm going to spoil this little monkey to death. He's never going to be short on clothes and toys! It is going to be great to be able to have that bonding time with the adoptive parents too before he gets here.
Also he now has a name: Colin Tony-Gerald.
He is named after both my grandpa who is struggling with cancer and also after his adoptive momma's grandpa who has passed away. We are honoring to amazing men in our lives with this amazing child and I am so so proud to call myself his birthmom.